I’m Back… and Here’s How

Lisa Cherry —  August 27, 2012

By Lisa Cherry

If you're a regular reader of frontline moms, you probably noticed our gap in posts.

I had no idea when they wheeled me into surgery four weeks ago it would take me this long to get on my feet.

But today I'm announcing… I'm back.

I’m back directing my children.

I'm back settling the squabbles.

I'm back figuring out what to cook in the kitchen.

I may be wearing my sling and using a dictation program, but I'm back writing for frontline moms.

As a veteran birthing mom of 10, I just didn't take the warnings very seriously about the pain of the surgery.

But after two weeks of heavy pain, my subconscious mind was wondering.... where is baby already!?

Since I thought pain medications were supposed to make you sleep, I figured I would surely be OK.

But? Somehow my meds worked the opposite. I was revved up, not knocked out! So my nights gave way to an endless blur of pain, insomnia, anxiety and fear.

Irrational thoughts tried to take control. My mind became a playground for the enemy.

God, where are you! I can't take this anymore! Is this ever going to end?

David knew that place in Psalm 31:9-10

Be merciful to me, O Lord, for I am in distress;
my eyes grow weak with sorrow,
my soul and my body with grief.
 My life is consumed by anguish
and my years by groaning;
my strength fails because of my affliction,
and my bones grow weak.

 

I am grateful my husband knew what to do. He took my iPad that I am dictating on right now, propped it up on my recliner chair and connected me to the sound of worship.

I so desperately needed this song from my Father... ← tweet

Maybe you need this song today....or your sweet sister in the Lord....or even your child.

It’s Gonna Be Alright  By Dennis Jernigan

It's gonna be alright, child
Even through the darkest night, child
I'll even use the darkness
To teach you how to hear Me
It's gonna be alright now
Even if you don't see how
I'll even use your failure
To help you to draw near Me

Hear Me. I am calling,
"Child, come falling deeper in love with Me."
Trust Me, you must let go
Or you will never know any deeper love in Me

It's gonna be alright here
If you will let Me hold your heart near
I'll even use your sorrows
To teach You how to love Me
It's gonna be alright, child
I'll hold you really close and tight child
I'll even use Your woundings
To help you know more of Me

Hear Me. I am calling,
"Child, come falling deeper in love with Me."
Trust Me, you must let go
Or you will never know any deeper love in Me

Why do you hold on to the things of your past
Let go and cling to Me and love that will last
How can you know Me if you do not trust My love
Let go! You'll find My love is more than enough

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Linked to:  Cornerstone Confessions